Cinderlite

I've been awake since 2:30am due to a shitty nightmare I had. I can't remember it, and I'm grateful for that because they've been haunting me lately. It really sucks because I only got a few hours of sleep after falling asleep around 11pm. I'm really getting sick of the constant nightmares my psychiatric medicine withdrawal is causing me. Never in my life have I had so many of them clustered together throughout each night, every night. I dread having to go to sleep now, and my exhaustion from subsisting off a few hours of sleep when I'm used to hypersomnia is super sucky.

Homestuck:

On the plus side, I immediately took a shower after I woke up. I also wrote my rp response for the (Homestuck!) Dirk/Dovesprite roleplay my partner and I have going. It's an intriguing premise, basically taking place post-game. Everyone spawns back onto their planets, including the guardians, and luckily Dirk / Roxy do as well. Dirk, though, is entirely disconnected with his friends and family. He views his peers as looking down on him, and even infantilizing him, even though they're not. He's just struggling with going from extreme isolation for the majority of his life to having people around him all the time. Anyway! He uses his narrative destroying powers to rip open a portal back to the Medium and steps through it. The goal is not unlike Ultimate Dirk -- restarting the Sburb game.

Dirk was most at home during the game, despite all the strife, stress, and danger. He wants, more than anything, to feel needed again. He wants to be regarded as important, instead of feeling pushed to the side as all of his friends make lives for themselves post-game. To be frank, he needs therapy, lol. Not that he'd agree to that or even think kindly of therapists. What Dirk doesn't realize is that once the game has ended, it's literally not possible to restart it, no matter how much you alter the code. Not to mention, Dovesprite is there (as she slowly figures out her gender identity), having settled into becoming a kind of Denizen due to Dirk's presence there. She's the equivalent to anti-piracy software, always banishing Dirk back to his own reality after a sort of internal timer goes off.

In an effort to manipulate Dovesprite, Dirk makes an offer to use his heart powers to rip her soul from her sprite body and put her in a robot/android body instead so she can join everyone else in the new reality. He wants her out of the way, and this seems like the best way to go about it. What he doesn't realize is that once Dove is gone from the second prototyping, it'll just be Crowsprite. Crowspite is pure code, and finds Dirk much more quickly than Dove does. He has to pop up from the opposite side of the universe every time he shows up, just to get enough time to fuck around before he finds out. He'll keep at this for 10 years before he comes to the realization that it's literally impossible to do what he wants. That'll force him to come to terms with his life, and his new place in Dove's life (romantic, though she struggles with seeing Bro constantly in Dirk) as well as all the friends he's been ignoring.

So yeah, that's the premise of our roleplay. It's our second time making an attempt at it. The first one was decidedly more dramatic, and I was uncomfortable with my portrayal of Dirk. It's been a year since then and I feel like I have a stronger grasp of who he is. I'm also learning that in-character fictional conflict isn't a bad thing or something to be afraid of. All of this to say that my writing is progressing and getting better every day! I'm thrilled. Though I wish I had some friends on DW that liked Homestuck too. I've looked around, but it doesn't seem like the Homestucks have moved / transitioned here despite the inevitable collapse of Twitter (especially now that Musk is apparently going to charge everyone for using it.)